Whenever he tried
to get at what she meant by studying what she did, he fell into
the common error of judging her by himself, and of making no
allowance for the sweeter and brighter side of human nature, which
was so strong in her that, in happier circumstances, the other
side would have been mere rudiment.
Her real reason for breaking with Grant was a desire to be wholly
honorable with Craig. She resolved to burn her bridges toward
Arkwright, to put him entirely out of her mind--as she had not
done theretofore; for whenever she had grown weary of Craig's
harping on her being the aggressor in the engagement and not
himself, or whenever she had become irritated against him through
his rasping mannerisms she had straightway begun to revolve
Arkwright as a possible alternative. Craig's personality had such
a strong effect on her, caused so many moods and reactions, that
she was absolutely unable to tell what she really thought of him.
Also, when she was so harassed by doubt as to whether the
engagement would end in marriage or in a humiliation of jilting,
when her whole mind was busy with the problem of angling him
within the swoop of the matrimonial net, how was she to find
leisure to examine her heart? Whether she wanted him or simply
wanted a husband she could not have said.
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