I will not even
ask you to do so, though your presence gave a brightness
to my life for a few days which nothing else could have
produced. But when the lamp for a while burns with special
brightness there always comes afterwards a corresponding
dullness. I had to pay for your visit, and for the comfort
of my confession to you at Koenigstein. I was determined
that you should know it all; but, having told you, I do
not want to see you again. As for writing, he shall not
deprive me of the consolation,--nor I trust will you.
Do you think that I should answer his letter, or will it
be better that I should show it to Papa? I am very averse
to doing this, as I have explained to you; but I would do
so if I thought that Mr. Kennedy really intended to act
upon his threats. I will not conceal from you that it
would go nigh to kill me if my name were dragged through
the papers. Can anything be done to prevent it? If he were
known to be mad of course the papers would not publish his
statements; but I suppose that if he were to send a letter
from Loughlinter with his name to it they would print it.
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